Thursday night at the Crest Theater in Downtown Fresno I went to the New Valley InForum Lecture Series (http://www.lylescenter.com/inforum/2005.htm) featuring Rebecca Ryan (http://www.nextgenerationconsulting.com).
When the event was over Craig Scharton (http://www.onebyoneleadership.com/edstaff.htm) asked me what I took away from it, and I told him that I needed to process before I could answer. So, this is my answer--just in case someone can benefit from my own personal epiphany. Something I am currently struggling with (and I have a sneaking suspicion that I'm not the only one with this problem) while trying to build this amazing thing that is the Woodward Shakespeare Festival, is letting other people take some of the responsibility off of my hands. I sat down with Cynthia Cooper the other day (sorry FCASH or the Fresno Coalition on Art, Science and History doesn't have a website) and discussed what our project needed and who in our organization was covering those needs. I found myself answering me a lot. A. Lot. Those few times that I didn't answer me? I really wanted to answer me. What I was feeling was that nobody knows as much as I do, nobody cares as much as I do, nobody else can do it right.
(My grandmother instilled two truisms into my head
1. If a thing is worth doing, it's worth doing right...
not so bad until you couple it with:
2. If you want it done right, do it yourself.)
What Rebecca Ryan said at the very end of her lecture--after a whole bunch of stuff that was really great and useful and exciting and inspired me to take down several pages of notes--that finally connected to me personally, and to my situation and struggle to build a company:
When nobody cares who takes the credit, amazing things happen.
For me, it was as if that proverbial lightbulb went on in my head. This is not a new concept to someone in the theater, especially me as a director. NOTHING happens on stage due to only the work of one person. There are the actors, the playwright, the designers, the crew (thank god for the crew), the director, the producer, the equipment, I could go on. Even if there IS only one person who is creating a particular piece of theater, it isn't theater until someone else is WATCHING it, so the audience is an equal part of the creation of theater. If we didn't want to perform for an audience we'd all be home reading Shakespeare in front of our bathroom mirrors (the acoustics are usually better there).
Of course! I thought as I considered what I took away from Rebecca Ryan's lecture, I have an agenda, I have something to prove and I want the credit for proving it!
See, when I direct a play, I fully understand the concept of no one particular person getting credit. I also understand that if the play is a huge success, most of the accolades go to the actors. If it is in any way a failure, all of the blame goes to the director. Designers and crew rarely get blame/accolades, unfortunately I need to add playwrights in there. Come to think of it, the audience rarely gets the blame/accolades. Except by the actors, as in Wow, what a great audience, they just energized all of us (actors never say anything bad about an audience, you know!). I just haven't been applying that to the Festival.
The question for me now is, "Do I want the credit or do I want the Festival?"
So, Craig, what I took away from this lecture was that INNOVATION is so, so, so much more important than EGO.
The Woodward Shakespeare Festival needs this innovation. Fresno needs this innovation. The Central Valley needs this innovation. None of the above need my ego.